XsunsetterX

Dear everybody, I’m not just moody. I have Bipolar Disorder. I don’t choose to have this unbearable depression, Where I sob uncontrollably and the most unpredictable times. A sadness that paints your entire mind, And drips Down into your soul. And you don’t know when it’s suddenly going to Change. Change, from being a terrifying unhappiness, To being such a fantastic happiness So spectacular, That you can’t even connect your thoughts with your own brain. Where you challenge the world, Because you feel bigger than a speck of dust for The first time in your Life. And then? It changes. It changes from being such an

Looking in the mirror The eyes that stare back Are not mine They're dark Cold and empty The warmth that once filled them Is now gone The skin It ripples and cracks It seems so much darker Than before The nails Are longer Sharper Fierce Like talons Of a bird Or monster Deep voices In my head Ask me to give in To accept The darkness and fear Suddenly A hot flash Skin tears open But there's no blood Just dark leathery flesh That takes over My eyes They burn As hot rage fills me up And consumes me No longer the girl I once used to be No more the joy I once used to feel Dark and devious Stone-cold and empty The transformation Is complete.